wheres the once lynette that i see in the photos?

can i scream and shout and claw at you?

you know, at times, certain facts need not to be repeated right in front of my face many many times. it gets quite irritating. especially when it's something i'm dreadfully trying to avoid. some people would just come and repeat that fact all over again.

lemme see. i had 2 friends telling me that. i myself saw it everytime i came here, this would probably make up countless times. and i saw it whenever i went to his blog, which im trying very hard to abstain from clicking his name.

i used 'abstain' because it's something i desperately want to avoid. like monks & nuns abstaining from alcohol or meat.

ABSTAIN! then i'll abhor. i wonder when will i start to abhor. and how can i abhor him? sounds pretty impossible.

and to think he still cares.

i wonder when will all this shit end. and i got a feeling that i'll probably revert back to sec school and scold vulgarities, like really alot this time round. but i don't want to be such a person.

i've counted. i said 'fuck' 4 times throughout this entire year. including now, it concludes a total 5 times. it's not something to be proud of. but i very much want that word out of my dictionary and replace it with something profound like - purloining or something else.

i'm glad i nvr said any hokkien versions this year and i probably keep it that way.

im getting very malas on repeating myself already.

no, i think im just sick of myself.